I used to write

I used to write. I used to write alot. then I let other peoples opinion on my writing get me down. their criticisim , negativity and comments cut me deep to the core to the point where i did not want to write any more.


how sad it is that people let others determine how one should live or be.

no one has the right to tell any how how they should or should not live. no one has the right to judge anyone. and there are a great deal of armchair judges in this world right now. most of them  who have no business doing that.


there has been so much loss latley in the world from human trafficking to suicides of beloved artists and it sickens me to see the hateful negative reactions to all of this from so called “christians” judging the suicidal to armchair politicians dumping politics into a horrible human traficking situation. This world needs more love and less hate


the Death of Chester Bennington afffected me greatly. not only because I was a fan of his music but because i could understand how he felt. even if in a small way. how sad it was to feel so  helpless adn hopeless that to end his pain he ended his life. No one and i repeat NO ONE knows what was going on in his mind at the time of this desperate act and no one will ever know the reasons why. and its easy to pass judgement on a man who is no long around to defend himself. all we human beings can do is hold his family and those who loved him as family close to our hearts and keep them in our thoughts and prayers or whatever you do to help people.


If you want to Honor Chester. Help a friend reach out to them talk to them. smile at a stranger on the street. empathize with someone you other wise woudl criticisze the world will only get better when we help one another. Judgemental comments help no one

yes I know this is full of spelling errors gramatical errors but thats what happens when I am in thought and i iput it down on paper.




Chester Bennington

what is there to say Another bright tallented singer gone way to soon one never knows what one is going through in their lives obviously a pretty dark place for Chester Everyone in their life goes through dark spaces in time. some more darker than others. Some obviously dark others not so obviously. I wanted so badly to come up with some wise words on this. but words escape me.   this lyric comes to mind. his own words.. rest in peace chester. you will be rememberd by those who your music touched.


“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest”



You are not alone in this world reach out


Been a while

been a while since i wrote something and honestly i have not felt like it. for some reason the words just cannot come to mind of what i want to say about some things in life. but for now i will say I am here still alive still working still swimming…

being bold

being bold is hard .. some people will understand it others will not the point is sooner or later you have to do what you need to do for yourself and stop living for others. no matter what some one will have a problem with it.. t hat is their problem not yours…..